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[24 Dec 2006|02:23am]
fa la la la la
la la la la
. . PrAiSe mE

[20 Nov 2006|11:36pm]
i should really stop listening to the same song over and over again...
1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[08 Nov 2006|03:05am]
i'd die right now for somebody to click with me like whoa right now

im tired of falling for people who end up hating me

im sorry
. . PrAiSe mE

i disappear only to return again [09 Oct 2006|09:17pm]
when was the last time i wrote in this thing

i know nobody reads it anymore.

but if you do. you should leave a comment

anywhoo. i went to central park the other day.
very theraputic.



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^. not central park.

but pretty. nonetheless

so anywhoo.
i've been thinking a lot lately.
i really have nowhere else to write this shit down so i chose livejournal.
but i feel like i've had an epiphany or something.

i don't know.
i'm usually that person who has made a big deal out of basically everything.
but i prided myself on how i lived in the moment. but i realized i don't.
i always thought. what do i have to do tomorrow.
in a relationship. i always thought where was it going. how logn would it last. and what would we do when we had to breakup?
and like. what would i do with my future. my job. whatever

and i realized. like.
who cares. really.
who cares what im doing tomorrow. im so busy worrying about whats next that i never care about whats going on right now.
and who cares about a boyfriend. i'm not going to marry him. he's not goign to be perfect. and i'm not going to be perfect either. and nobody expects that so why am i worrying about it?
we all have needs. and we just find someone to temporarily meet them until we find someone to do that for us forever. hence the reason we marry them. who cares about differences. and disagreements.
people work them out. it makes for great debate. conversation. learning.

and who cares where i get my stuff? what i wear. what i do to my hair. what i do to my body. how many piercings or tattoos i have. as long as i love it isnt that what matters?

who cares if someone doesnt like me. its their fault that they'll never get the chance to expperience how cool i am. hahah.
i dont need to burden myself trying to please them.
i'll leave out my dishes if i want. i'll eat what i want when i want. i'll smoke if i want to. and i don't care.

and as far as my major? and my job?
there are so many odd jobs out there and nobody gets them by planning it and going to it. most of those peopel get them hrough experience and they find that thats what works for them.
who is to say that it wont happen to me?
my advisor told me she majored in spanish literature in college.
and she doesnt use it at all in her job now.
so as long as im educated. experienced. qualified. theres no reason why i shouldnt get a job that i want. regardless of what major i have.

so from now on. i guess i dont care anymore.
i'm on my own. i do what i want.
i dont need to worry about who i lose my virginity with anymore.
if it happens it happens.
im not going to care about what that guy thought of me when we kissed. he kissed me back. so he was obviously attracted in the first place.

i guess i'm just growing up.
that's all.

i like this feeling.

so jealous: Where does the good go?
download it

3 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[24 Jul 2006|02:39am]
i don't think anybody reads this anymore.

but i'll post anyway.

because myspace is down.

you should call me and text me a lot.

because i don't have the internet.

last week.

i was in A.C.

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that was my view

real life.

russians and ghetto

all the way.

1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[07 Jun 2006|06:16pm]
I would just like to take a moment of your time...

and show you

just HOW attractive lisa and i can beCollapse )

I appreciate your time

and thankyou
3 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

i stole a survey from emily [29 May 2006|12:38pm]
1.Who sits to your left?: billy
2.Are you failing this class?: nope.
3.Is this your favorite class?: not really. i actually can't wait until it's over
4.What class is it? English
5.Who do you talk to the most? nobody really. the whole class talks to each other. there's like 10 of us

1.Is your best friend in this class with you?: sadly no.
2.Do you have a crush on anyone in this class?: hahah. no
3.Who's the teacher?: FARINA!
4.Is the teacher a stupid idiot?: hells no. i love farina

1.What do you do during 3rd period?: eat. or sing
2.Do you chew gum in 3rd period? hell no. im singing or eatihng
3.Who sits behind you?: nobody. im either in lunch or beiters
4.Are you failing this class?: no way
5.What class is it? Lunch. or advanced chorus. or mens or womens

1.What class is it?: chorus
2.Do you ever fall asleep in this class?: .. if i'm sick
3.Is this your favorite class?: nah

1.Who do you talk to most?: bre, or ryan
2.Who sits in front of you?: nobody. im front and centerr
3.Is the teacher boring?: No.

1.Who do you talk to the most?: same class
2.What's your favorite thing about the teacher?: his like everyday speech. and when he cracks jokes on us.
3.What class is it? Advanced theater workshop

1.Who sits to your left?: Amber
2.Are you failing this class?: not anymore!
3.Is this your favorite class?: sort of. second to favorite
4.What class is it?: DIGITAL PHOTOGRAPHY
5.Who do you talk to the most?: MS.GOODMAN. hahha. and like malvey, jeff, brittany, lisa when she comes in all the time. phil when he comes in all the time.
1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[21 Apr 2006|12:50am]
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. . PrAiSe mE

Just a few thoughts. Nobody reads this shit anyway. [05 Apr 2006|02:48pm]
It is April.
i should not feel the need to put on a winter jacket.
and what was with the 10 minutes of snow?
I don't appreciate it, and I'm pretty the flowers don't either.

Mr. Marks. I saw you today talking to Gollnick when i was walking to American Cinema. Your hair was in a low ponytail. Now, if you can easily put all of your hair into a low ponytail. You should cut it.

Dear Fed ex man,
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that we order so many packages all the time. I'm sorry that everytime you come to our door, we are unavailable. I'm sorry that you have to leave those little note things on the door saying you stopped by, and that we have to sign them so the next day you come back, and give us the package and pick up the note. And then one day later, you receive another package for our address, and must repeat the vicious cycle. I am sorry.

Did you know this morning, at 1:02 and 3 seconds A.M. it was 1/02/03/04/05/06 on april 5th 2006?
1-2-3-4-5-6 and that's liek the first time it's ever happened.

nifty facts people.
btw, i didn't go looking that shit up myself, Flan told our class while he was talking about our research paper. He seemed mighty excited.

Speaking of April 5th.


...Virgin Mary?
4 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[30 Mar 2006|11:57am]
trees outside my window getting leaves excites me

... chest pains ...

1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[05 Mar 2006|12:29am]
ignorance is bliss...

i hate knowing things...
. . PrAiSe mE

[26 Feb 2006|07:13pm]
dear whoever you are.

WHY. would you film over my tae bo tape..

with garth brooks??


i will kill you.
. . PrAiSe mE

[22 Feb 2006|04:34pm]
i know im going to sound really stupid and girly but.

... i'm tired of being( feeling </>) so ugly...
. . PrAiSe mE

[20 Feb 2006|09:49pm]


. . PrAiSe mE

[13 Feb 2006|07:41pm]
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Usually every friday i treat them for a dinner out somewhere for being so good.

But with the way they behaved this friday

I'm thinking about just keeping them at the hospital where they belong from now on.

No more road trips guys.
2 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[11 Feb 2006|02:21pm]
I want more than this.

Nobody gives a chance

stop stereotyping me.

I have an inside.
. . PrAiSe mE

[09 Feb 2006|06:29pm]

Everyone who reads this

and i know its not a lot.

instead of using google.com.
and yahoo

start using Goodsearch.com

its not shitty so don't worry

its powered by Yahoo.

once you go to the site.

you choose a charity of your choice.
and you can search some using keywords in a different search on the bottom

and everytime you search anything

it donates money to the charity you chose.

spread the word to everyone please
. . PrAiSe mE

[05 Feb 2006|01:19pm]
2 lbs away from my first goal weight.

i actually lost 7 lbs :)

... maybe i CAN do this.
1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[02 Feb 2006|09:19pm]
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Hello. New Hair.
1 BoWeD DoWn | . . PrAiSe mE

[23 Jan 2006|06:24pm]

this gets easier.
. . PrAiSe mE

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